Well, that’s the most interesting story to hear for any gay, I think?
I was actually interested in girls in my early teens. Maybe it was because I was just taught to be, I don’t know. As a kid, I was interested in things that usual boys are. I played with model cars, loved playing in the woods, built tree houses, etc :)) I was never interested in my mothers clothes or playing with dolls, like some young gays :D
As I tell on my *About Me* page, I am from a small Eeaster European country where less than two decades ago gay sex was illegal. The society was and still is very homophobic and… The fact that I lived in a very small town didn’t help…
Anyway. I guess I started to worry about it when I was about 12-13.. That’s when I started to become aware of my sexuality… I had a very good friend with whom we masturbated together.. Back then it was still all about girls, but I sometimes found myself thinking of boys… and at some point I realised that thinking of guys was more exciting to me… I kept on telling myself that it is natural that I am interested in other boys sexuality and *penises* because I was just growing up… and I had read it somewhere that it was normal…
One time a friend of mine came over and we started watching porn from the Internet. Hetero porn, of course… And he suggested that we should also watch gay porn, it was just interesting for him, I think. I had never done that on my own.. I think I was too scared.
Well, I think that’s when I got very worried about my sexuality. I became very aroused. I don’t know if he ever realised it… I haven’t talked to him for over 5 years by now… I think he is straight :))
Anyway… after that evening I started visiting gay sites on my own… The first times I remember getting an orgasm just from watching the pictures.. Then it was pretty clear to me.
I kept on going out with girls, though. I even had a few serious girlfriends…
Well, until I fell in love with a very good friend of mine. He is the most homphobic person I have ever known!… So you must realise how depressed I was. I was actually considering committing a suicide. I even made plans for it… but, thank god, never got to it.. I am not the kind of person.
I decided that I would never tell my parents… or anyone. Yet, I started to find someone online… And I did…
Well, but this was a story about me discovering my sexuality… :) Some other day I’ll write about my first gay experiences… :)
Hey, here’s a song I quite like:
And traditionally… a cute guy:
A cute Asian guy! :))
